We are Imperfect People living in an Imperfect World

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I am constantly reminded that each of us are imperfect people living in an imperfect world. We all make mistakes, bad choices and sometimes we completely turn our backs on God.

Being a Christian isn’t about being perfect or even trying to be perfect, it is about having a personal relationship with God, and allowing him to use us, and everything we have been through to his glory.

For years, I know I trued to make my life appear that it was perfect, and that I was the perfect person, and tried (apparently successfully) pull off being the prissy girl who looked and acted the part, when in all actuality my life was a mess. During the period of time I was pretending to be the perfect Christian girl (in high school), who was involved in church and youth activities and all that jazz, what very few people saw was the mess my life was and the fact I was struggling to cope with grief. During this time, I was well on the road to developing an eating disorder, I was constantly skipping school, Self Harm, and doing dumb stuff and didn’t care.

In College I had pushed God away and was doing what I wanted to do, and doing it all my way, but God was still there, guiding my life.

After College I still spent a few years a drift not really knowing what was going on, yet I was learning about who I am and what I am passion about and the talents God gave me.

I gave my life back to the Lord about three and a half years ago. Some days, even weeks and months I feel like I am the worst person alive. I still struggle with Anxiety and insecurities each and every day. Most days I don’t feel like I am ever good enough or worthy of God’s love for me.

Even when I feel like my whole world and life is falling apart, God reminds me that he is there, that he loves me, and that he is in control.


His Strength is made Perfect in our Weakness

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“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭KJV‬‬

This verse has been on my mind today, with having a stressful few weeks and seeking God’s will and direction for my future. I have been trying to stand back and allow the Lord to lead, guide and show me his will for my life and not be afraid to embrace it with open arms even when it scares me.

There have been a lot of things on my plate the past few weeks and I have been looking for the lessons and things the Lord is trying to teach me through each situation.

The Lord has been drawing things out and putting his finger on things that in the past I have said no to or not considered, as well as things I feel totally unqualified to do. That is where the verse comes in, it has been a reminder that his strength is made perfect in our weakness. In our weak areas when we give them to the Lord to use, he can take them and run with them.

One of my biggest obstacles is getting over myself and my wants when they aren’t 100% in line with God’s. While these things aren’t sins, they are things that are keeping me from being where God wants me to be.

Making time to be alone with God

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This morning I was thinking about how, now that I am working graveyard for a while I have been praying and spending time alone with God on my way to work.

While working graveyard isn’t my favorite thing, it has been teaching me a lot about who I am, who God created me to be, and how making time to be alone with him is so important.

Making God a priority on a daily basis is so important to having a good relationship with him.

From my own experience I have found that the more time I spend with God, the closer he is and the more I see him work in my life.

Challenges and Trials still Occur

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I want to take a little time and talk about some things that occur and still occur when we become Christians.

Life still happens after we are saved, we are still human beings, with human thoughts, feelings, emotions and trials.

When we get saved, life doesn’t magically turn into rainbows and butterflies, and we don’t magically become invincible to the not so awesome parts of life.

We still face financial difficulties, being laid off from work, jobs ending, stress, having to find a new job, out growing friendships, having to end friendships that aren’t healthy, even if that friend is a fellow Christian.

This past year I have the job loss, financial difficulties, having to walk away from an unhealthy friendship, and a lot of uncertainties and stress.

It has been hard, but I have never really second guessed God in it all. I know I have in the past, when I was younger. As I have gotten older, I have realized that everything happens for a reason and the trials and hardships are there to try and prove our faith. We can’t live on the mountain top all the time, sometimes (and sometimes it feels like a lot of the time) we have to go through the valleys as well.

Even though the trials are not fun, and sometimes we have to do things we don’t like to do, we are better and stronger in the end for it.

When God Asks if you are Willing

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There comes a time in every Christian’s life when God puts his finger on something in our lives and asks us if we are willing to give it to him and do that thing or give something up for him and for his work. He may or may not have us act on that thing. If he does ask us to to do that thing, he wants us to do so willingly.

God is an amazing God, who doesn’t make us do his will kicking and screaming.

He knows how we work, and how to reach us where we are at. He knows we all think, feel, understand, and do things differently. That is how he created us, and he has the manual on how to connect with each of us. He knows how to get our attention, and sometimes it is gentle nudgings, or a quick thought cross our mind, and sometimes he has to make it glaringly obvious.

Called to go Debt Free and live a Simpler Life

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The Lord has put it on my heart to get my debts paid off as soon as I can, and live a simpler life.

Life is about more than material goods.

I have felt God’s leading to live a simpler life with fewer worldly goods. Don’t get me wrong, I am not giving all my worldly goods (because having pots, pans and dishes do pay for themselves with each use).

For the past couple years I have really been about trying to do a lot more DIY projects and learning to do as much as I can for myself.

My biggest debt that I will be needing to pay off are my college loans. I know the Lord can help me by providing work for me to get my debts paid off. Even if I never actually directly use my college degree for work, I don’t regret the 4 years I spent in college. I made some great friends who I still look up to and respect, and I got to live in a couple small towns while I was in college and fell in love with living in the middle of nowhere, in farm country. I really believe that the Lord wanted me there to plants seeds for my future (even though all the details are a bit unclear still).

All Things Work Together for Good

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“And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:27-28‬ ‭KJV

This passage of scripture has been on my heart a lot the past few months, and I keep coming back to it. This passage is a reoccuring theme and I know the Lord reminds me with it that everything I have gone through, am going through and will go through will be used for good and his Glory.

As a young adult, I went to a university to further my education in hopes to help me find a better job, and help provide the comforts of this life. Between studying Women’s History, History of the American West, hearing stories told of when my grandparents were kids, and seeing how the recession has hit people, myself included, I know that they are all pieces of the puzzle so to speak. They have been teaching moments that God has used to mold me. 

Having seen God work in the hard times, and in times when he seems silent and far away, I know that holding on to the fact that I know he is there, and the promises he has given us.