This year has been a tougher year. I really feel like I have been stretched and tried.
Today I feel like it hit me, that sometimes God stops us dead in our tracks because we got complacent and he wants us to change the course we are on.
A little back story, I had been laid off from the job I had had for nearly 2 and a half years back in March. I have spent the last few months struggling financially. The job I have now came along at the perfect time, though it is only seasonal, and in about another month or so, I will be without a job again. I have been actively looking for work in the area I am in, to no avail. That got me thinking, “this isn’t working, this is not where I am supposed to be. Where does God want me to be and what does he want me to be doing?”
I had attended a university in a small rural town in the middle of farm country. The towns I lived in, were a better fit for me than the city ever has been. Between living the city and growing up in a big church in the city, I felt lost and that I was a square peg trying to fit into a round hole.
There are times, that God does want us to bloom where we are planted, and we are to find why we are supposed to be doing where we are. Conversely, there are times God calls us to go someplace else, and where we are at is not where he can best use us.
A few years back, I had kind of been discussing this with a good friend of mine, who is like a sister to me, had told me “the right thing at the wrong time, is the wrong thing”, meaning, even when you know that something is the right choice for you, but it’s not the right time for you to be doing it, than it is the wrong thing for you at that point in time. I have also heard it similarly put, “When God answers pray, sometimes it’s a yes, other times it is a no and sometimes it is ‘wait’.” As there is something we need to learn or do (or both), in the interim.
As we grow in our walk with God, and in life in general, we grow and change. I am not the same as I was a year ago, let alone 5 or 10 years ago. Our goals and priorities definitely change.
Choosing to live a Christ Centered life comes with choosing what God wants over what we want. It is by no means easy, but it is better than living life without God. God calls us each to live different lives, and do different things with the lives he has given us.
While this year has been tough, I am grateful for this year. To be able to Grow, and rely on God. If it weren’t for him, I would be a complete mess. He has definitely changed my goals and priorities the past few months. While I don’t know what’s next for me, once my seasonal job is over, but I have hopes that 2018 will be a year of more changes, in a good way, and that God’s will will be done.