Called to be Single in my 20’s.

Hey Everyone!

As I draw closer to God and reflect back on my twenties, since I left that decade of my life about seven months ago, I have come to realize and see that for me, I spent my twenties being single so I could grow, come back to God and learn about who I am as a woman of God.

I started my twenties in the middle of my sophomore year of college, majoring in Early Childhood / Elementary Education. A couple short months later I changed my major to Social Science and minored in Literature. It was while I was in college, that the adventurous side of me started to come out. I was exploring the world around me.

A little over a year after I had finished college, I took off and went to New York on my own. I was 23, and had gone out to be a nanny. Things didn’t end up that well, and it was not a good fit, so I was sent home after only a week. Due to weather issues in my first layover city going home, I couldn’t get out of New York until the next morning, so I had spent the night alone, at La Guardia. It Eerie, Creepy and I did not sleep at all that night. At this point in my life I had turned my back on God years before. That didn’t matter that night, I had prayed a few earnest prayers that night and the Lord kept me safe.

It was another three years after that trip before I gave my life to God.

The summer I gave my heart to God, I was 26. It was nothing spectacular to witness. I was alone, at home, and it was the middle of the night.

The years in between going to New York, and getting saved, my best friend and I did a fair amount of hiking, and outdoorsy stuff.

After I gave my heart to the Lord and he saved my soul, I was still loved being outdoors, and have always felt more at home away from the big city than in it.

I know that I spent my twenties without being in a serious relationship, because I needed to get my life right with God, and to become the Woman he created me to be. If I had been in a committed relationship, I would not have been able to do what I was able to do in my twenties, and I don’t know how much further I would have strayed from God.


Serving in our own Communities

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Over the past four years or so, the Lord has really been putting it on my heart to find ways to serve others in need here in my home country. Despite the fact that the U.S. has been one of the countries with a good standard of living, where most places have clean water, and access to many amenities that we take for granted, there are areas right here in our own country that don’t have what many of us take for granted, like clean drinking water, running water, electricity (and I’m not talking about those who choose to live off grid in more remote places, I am talking about people who genuinely don’t have access to these basic things). There are areas of our country were people are living in extreme poverty, and for the most part they are being overlooked and ignored just because we are all in the US.

I don’t want to fault people who are genuinely called to go on missions trips and be longterm missionaries in Micronesia, Polynesia, Melanesia, as well as in Africa, Central, and South America. When you are called to do something, you need to go do it.

At the same time, We, as a body of believers should also be ministering to those here at home as well. There are areas of our country where people have never heard the Gospel at all, and areas where it seems like people have forgotten about or are too afraid to go. It is hard to fathom that there are children who live in homes where there is not enough money for food, whose last meal for the week is their lunch at school on Friday, and they don’t eat again until Monday when they go back to school.

Helping the vulnerable and those who are in truly in need of a helping hand here at home, and in our own communities are those I know that I am being called to help and minister to. We don’t need to be called to be a missionary to Africa or Asia to be of use to God, a willing heart and trusting God is what we need.

This is part of why I choose to live a simpler life so that I am able to do what I can where I can to help those in need, especially children and the elderly who need more help.

Ministry Burdens

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There is so much on my heart tonight, and I have no idea if I will be able to totally convey to you all what is on my heart accurately.

I really feel like the Lord has stopped me in my tracks and opened my eyes to changes that need to be made / opportunities that are not being acted upon and that there is a part for me to play in helping those changes happen. There are so many outreach and ministry opportunities that aren’t fully acted upon in a sustainable manner.

The where, what, why and how is up to God.

God is the Epitome of Love

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What a crazy and tough year and a half it has been for me spiritually.

It has been an uphill struggle since I lost my job 16 months ago. I have spent the last year feeling like I have been at rock bottom. I even doubted God and my faith in him. I had left the church I was raised in for the better part of a year. I had things I needed to sort out for myself and needed time to branch out and see other churches and have time with just me and God.

There have been baby steps occurring over the past few months and glimpses of God’s goodness and patience with me.

Things are not perfect nor will they ever be, though I am slowly starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I have really started becoming content with who God created me to be and with what I believe. I have come to terms with my past and how it has gotten me to where I am and who I am today.

I have also had a good friend to talk to at times who seems to get me better than anyone else. Then again she is the second daughter of five in her family, and we seem like similar personalities, to a point.