What a night, and what a week. Last weekend was the Women’s Retreat that I went on, and then this evening was the Rend Collective Concert.
This concert was the second Rend Collective Concert that I have been to. The first one I went to, was when they had come to Portland in 2016. While I had a great time last time as well as this time, this year was a bit different for me. As I have been growing in the Lord, I was really able to enjoy this evening’s concert as a Worship Service with my favorite Christian band, rather than just a concert.
Over the past few years, I have been seeing how God uses and blesses different types of worship. There is a time and a place for the reserved, conservative worship, but there is also nothing wrong with the uninhibited style of worship.
Coming from a place where the worship services and the worship parts of the service were very reserved, controlled and conservative, and understanding that that way of worship wasn’t necessarily a good fit for me, to having gone to my first Rend Collective experience two years ago, and really being opened up to a different style of worship and seeing God work through that left an impression on me. It has been two years between my first Rend Collective concert and the one I went to last night, and I have definitely changed in two years. Being more open and receptive to allowing God to use whatever means necessary to speak to hearts and draw people close to him, I am all for it. Last night, I was trying to think of comparisons to the closest thing I had experienced to a worship service like that, as I have never attended a megachurch that have a praise team, a worship band and all the latest technology, and the closest thing I could relate it too was a Youth Camp chapel service, and even then those still tended to be a bit more reserved than last night.
This weekend I had gone on a ladies retreat. I hadn’t realized how much I had needed this retreat and fellowship with other Christian ladies.
The topics of the devotions focused on “I AM” passages in the Bible, where the lord used “I Am” statements in his teachings and how we need to be like sheep who stick close to the Shepard.
While I am still fairly new to the church, one of the things the Lord has been dealing with me on, is allowing others to see the real me, and where I have come from in my own journey.
This weekend I was able to be more open with these ladies than I ever have with a lot of people I have known for years.
While I don’t like talking about things I have gone through in the past, and I have recovered from them, they don’t define me. That being said these issues have helped shape who I am today.
I have built a certain level of trust with some of these ladies, so it is a bit easier to open up to them. It has also helped me to not be so afraid to share my testimony.
If I could help one young women either not have to go through some of the things I have been through, or be a listening ear and encouragement while she is going through / or recovering from some of what I have been through, it would all be worth it.
When I was younger, I never really thought about how people, especially those who are younger than me, watch my life, and how I live my life.
Once I realized that there were younger girls watching my life, I was in college, and didn’t want the responsibility, so I had shirked it.
As I got older, I began to understand that this responsibility was not a bad thing, it is something that God wants me to use for his glory.
Watching the girls grow up, who I have watched grow up from the time they were born or really little, and babysat them when they were little, I knew I had the power to have an impact, good or bad, on their lives.
Like I mentioned earlier, after the period of not wanting to deal with it and trying to escape that responsibility, I knew I couldn’t escape it. I had to make the choice of what kind of example I was going to be to those in my life. With age, maturity and God, I pray that my light will shine.