I have felt the need to write this post for a little while, even though I am still in the midst of the trial.
In the past week or so the lord has put the chorus of the Lauren Daigle song “trust in you” on my heart, as a reminder that even though I am going through a huge trial and feel like my world is crashing down around me, I still need to trust in Him.
When You don’t move the mountains
I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You
I am trying to be content with where I am while I am waiting on God to fill in the details and open the door for the next step of the way. I don’t do well with living in an uncertain situation where I feel stuck and trapped while I know that it’s not where I am supposed to be. I keep reminding myself that God has something bigger in store for me, and this is just a chapter in my life.
I am also reminded of the story of Job in the Old Testament. God allows Satan to take everything from Job with the exception of Job’s life. In the process Job question his whole existence and God. In the process of everything, even in great loss, and when we feel like our world is crashing down around us, and we ask why God would let such bad things happen to good people, we can look to Job and see that our wisdom and knowledge is limited in comparison to God’s. Job was also given bad advice on the part of his “friend’s”, because they were humans and had limited understanding of why God does what he does and how God works. This story also goes to show us that even when our world is upside down God is in control and knows what will happen. At the. End of the book of Job, God restored to Job what he had had prior to the trial and then multiplied it.